My goodness…how is it that when one finally goes to bed on time, they wake up at 3am and cannot shut off the brain?!? As I tossed and turned, and after getting up to heed the call of nature, I contemplated my choices: workout now, devotional now, finish credit card statement balance now, blog now, or lay here now?
Well, my mind eventually began thinking up phrases and sentences for the blog, so I thought, “alright! here we go!”…been a long time comin’ and was on my to-do list for the day anyway.
Which is how I find myself still here at 6:14 am just barely starting…but having immersed myself in the world of WordPress. Sort of.
I have changed my blog’s appearance, I have attempted to link it up with Facebook and Twitter (thought I already had?), and spent an unheard of amount of time trying to figure out Gravatars…first of all, that word makes me think my pictures will all come out blue! And why can’t I just have my picture show up in the sidebar already? Why is there this funny symbol that one’s cursor must hover over to “sort of” see some pictures? Answers and help greatly appreciated. I do believe God has better things for me to do at this moment than spend another unheard of amount of time deciphering Help topics…=-) like, maybe catching up this blog!
So, I have been promising various folks that I will be blogging about this or that for a few weeks now…so much to share about the wonders God is doing and has done in my life!
Psalm 105:5 (New International Version, ©2011)
5 Remember the wonders he has done,
his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced
The crazy thing is, there is so much to tell, I may have to break it up into parts, or have a verrrrry long blog post. I’ll let you know what I decide at the end…which by that time, you will already know.
And, I am thinking of going most recent to a month ago…which, since blogs appear with the most recently posted on top, means you may actually read them in order of occurrence! Ha! It is way too early for that Quantum Leap thinking…
And my alarm just went off, so it’s time to wake up. 😉
So, let’s start with NOW.
Right now I am trusting that even though this day has started incredibly backwards, God can anoint, protect, and turn it around!
Already I have been blessed by seeing my husband off to work and enjoying a healthy breakfast…the first important because I LOVE HIM SO, and the second, because I want to take care of this temple and glorify the Lord through it!
I am currently taking part in a “65 days to Reshaping It All” challenge. To learn more, go here (not a hyplerlink, but there is one in the sidebar. Otherwise, please cut and paste…anyone want to tell me how to insert a hyperlink?):
It is an online blog/community for those wishing to Reshape their lives spiritually and physically! It is based on the book “Reshaping It All” by Candace Cameron Bure’ with Darlene Schacht. I have written a review of the book on Amazon.com (again, not a hyperlink):
My reviewer name is Happy Girl. Suffice it to say, it is a positive review. Please go check it out!
(I may post by itself afterwards, but I already have so many words with which to to inundate you!)
But Robyn, you teach Christ-centered yoga! You sing and dance in a high energy show! You love healthy foods! You talk about all of this good-for-us stuff! Why would you need to do this challenge?
(a.k.a, I know, right?!?!)
Because God often uses my mess to give a message.
Through the next series of blogs, I hope to fill in whatever readers I may have (and I so appreciate you taking the time!) on how I have had just about every reason possible, be it nurture or nature, to have an eating disorder, to have obsessive-compulsive tendencies, to lack peace in my spiritual and physical life…but I know the Truth, and the Truth has, is, and will, set me free!
So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.
Have you ever had one of those times in your life when it seems all signs are pointing to the same direction? When you have really sought God, and His answer is a “barrage” of resources that seem to just flow together? (And believe me, in this world we are certainly exposed to sooo many resources all the time…the trick is leaning on Him for discernment as to which ones we focus our attention!)
Well, that has DEFINITELY been happening to me!
God has been using all kinds of things…He often speaks to me through music. One of my favorite things when I go walking or jogging, is to set my I-pod to shuffle, and ask God to be my DJ…you would be ASTOUNDED by the incredibly accurate playlists He comes up with; both secular and Christian songs! In fact, I am will be listing some of those soon!
God often speaks to me by “playing” a song over and over in my head until I stop to analyze why it keeps going…and it is usually a pretty obvious message…and even funny! (Sidebar: did you the know the week after Easter is Holy Hilarity week in Orthodox churches? I just found this out! God is the author of humor, and we can choose to laugh in honor of His pulling the ultimate trick on the Devil with the Risen Christ! Awesome! That is something to chortle about…=-))
And, lately, a lot of books.
How about “Made to Crave” by Lysa TerKeurst, “The Ultimate Guide to the Daniel Fast” by Kristen Feola, “Raw Emotions” by Angela Stokes, and “I can make you thin” by Paul McKenna (I know, what? There is good stuff there, I promise…don’t shy away!) ? My plan is to discuss these in some form or fashion very soon…but for now, let’s just say they are most definitely linked with what I have been asking of God, and what He has been answering!
I did just finish a Daniel Fast, in fact, and have a blog of that to write…so stay tuned! So much wonderful stuff to share and all of it leading to where I am right now!…and possibly what God may be trying to tell YOU…! (holla back, Kristen, I adore you and the book! Can’t wait to share!)
So, yes, a history of body image issues (nurture and nature), family history of depression on one side and addiction on the other (thank the Lord for generational curses being broken in His Power), health issues (candida conditions, hormonal issues, injuries from my life as a high energy performer) have certainly distracted me and gotten me down from time to time…but God has always been there and will always be there…and the mountain of Emotional Eating is no longer mine. What I have known to be true in my head for a long time in this issue is finally going to be true in my heart, in His timing and Strength!
So, let’s get down to the practical side of things…and doing the Reshaping It All challenge…I don’t know exactly what that will mean for me, yet, except that I do have a goal of blogging at least once a week about it. I have a goal of consistency with my exercise, eating healthily AND having a treat once or twice a week, and most importantly, putting the first things first, meaning God and all that He is telling me to do!
What has He been telling me to do? To get enough sleep. To not only choose right foods, but TURN OFF THE TV when I am eating. To take 2 rest days a week from exercise (other than my show), and to choose exercises that I like (who doesn’t know that already? and yet I have to be reminded), not what the world says is effective, because I will actually DO it. (Romans 12:1-2, anybody?) To not only do the Love Dare on my husband, but Also On Myself (where appropriate)!
Because it all starts and ends with Love. He is love. He loves me. Who am I not to love myself? As is often said, can’t give away what I don’t have.
The ministering service He has given me, Vessels of Clay Yoga, LLC (Christ-centered yoga), depends on my ability to love…and funnily enough, I am able to love my students, but not myself. I seek Him on their behalf and He fills me so full of Grace…but I have not received for me…so how could I be surprised if I do not seemingly walk in victory over my own issues?
1 Corinthians 13:1
If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
I do not wish my thoughts and words towards myself to be a bunch of noise! Where is the peace in that? And my whole life and mission is all about love and peace! My students see that, my friends see that, and I know it…I am ready to live it more often than I have…
Because you see, I DO live it…but I hear God calling me up higher…He doesn’t just want you or me to only have glimpses of the Joyful Life He came for us to have (John 10:10), He wants us to be free always!
There are gonna’ be down days…and luckily, we don’t have to live by how we feel. I can also guarantee you that after a victory, the enemy is going to try to steal your joy. Stick close to God, my friend. This is where we have an opportunity to build up that Resistance Muscle…a phrase I am taking from Reshaping It all…
Oh yeah, the challenge!
Let’s quit babbling, shall we? Yesterday was indeed a victorious day…the day before was one of moderation…Here is a cut-and-paste of yesterday’s tweets (had fun posting my healthy choices):
have had marvy day of good food & movement; lists to follow! I praise You, oh Lord 4 your marvelous works in me & of me!
yoga this a.m., followed by performing in my show (#1 hits of the 60’s in Branson), & now to teach Christ-centered yoga!
Food: bfast: millet rice oatbran w/alm milk, chia seeds, hemp seeds. Snack:ezeke tortilla w/collards, chry tomatoes…#reshapingitall
Lnch:green smoothie w/green juice (made b4),rice prot pwdr,froz peaches, soaked dates, cinn, &lil greek yog!Yum sneaky veg. #reshapingitall
Pre~yoga teach din: homemade bean burg w/annie’s ketchup, salad of collard, almonds, onion, cranberries, flax oil n lemon vinegar. #
FINALLY, lil treat in form of java monster vanilla light. (needed to use micro in gas station & forgot fork, so…) love #reshapingitall!
Unloading yoga class stuff in rain=yucky, wet teacher, BUT also = @VeslsOfClayYoga is ready to kick it praise, worship, sweat n bliss style!
had a GRRREAAAAT time with my students tonight! Yummy yoga, powerful praise. Love you, Lord! Thank you for my portion!
Now, will I always post all those things? Nope. For me, that could become obsessive behavior.
What I want you to know is that the day BEFORE this one was a generally healthy eating day, but a rest day from exercise (except for my show); however, after the show my hubby and I went out for an impromptu dinner of Sushi and Plum wine (one glass)…followed by Andy’s frozen custard.
Moderation in Action.
I chose NOT to condemn myself. I actually had a peace about it. And you can see how in following the Lord the next day, it went swimmingly! Are there challenges? Yes. Before that dinner, we were supposed to have an appointment that the other party forgot. Right now, I have been awake for 5.5 hours, and I have to leave for work in 4 hours. Would like to work on Credit Card balancing, do some moving/exercising and take a nap, for heaven’s sake. It’s going to take some strength just to make myself lie down…
Phillipians 4:13 tells me I can do all things through Christ Who strengthens me. I am choosing to really believe and accept that this time.
I praise You, Lord, and I receive Your Word. I mean it, I hear You!!! And I am so humbled and blessed that you bother. Thank You, Big Daddy.
your little Robyn